Anxiety and Anticipation


We’ve been doing the happy dance around here the last few days because James’ neuropsychological evaluation came back and it was all good news. Great news is that the psychologist observed and documented independence on the letter board (communication partner is not assisting with answers) and wonderful news that James has what it takes to succeed in a challenging academic environment. We knew that from his home school work   but it is nice to see it on paper.

Well while we were celebrating,  James’ anxiety was building. Today, the first thing he did when Shannon arrived was tell her he needed to write about his anxiety and share it with everyone. He wanted his “team” to know how he was feeling and he wanted blog readers to know since many have autism and are following his journey.

I want to write about my anxiety. 

I learned that I did well on my recent psych eval, but now I have new worries. Next, I need to take the placement tests and I am nervous. What if I don’t do well? Shannon tells me that I can do anything I set my mind to, but I am unsure of myself. This opportunity is the gateway to my future and I want it more than everything in my past. People forget that I am just 17 – I am still learning about myself and the world around me. Yes, I have autism, and yes, I have successfully mastered many goals, but I am still human. I need support and confidence from my team, but I also need to voice my concerns. My team amazes me and I appreciate their encouragement. To say I am grateful would be an understatement.